Friday, April 30, 2021

Kimberly here





Kimberly here. I suppose we should tell you what the last couple of days have been like. Yesterday I woke up to pouring rains. And as June recently alluded to, rain in a mobile home has the effect of being sheltered somewhere midway between a brick townhome and a pup tent. With metal walls and roof, closer to the pup tent in bad weather. The night before I’d awoken to winds so high I was making mental note for the umpteenth time how grateful I was that Bill was safely in a hotel room in Casper, WY. At this point, my mind wandered to how we were going to get the man home. When he was ready, of course.

 

Not wanting to influence in any way the meditative needs of my wandering husband, I set out to discover the various choices we’d have, at some point. I’d offered to drive up the 12 hours on Interstate 25 to pick him up but kept going over and over in my mind just where I would leave our dog Oliver, who recently - perhaps because of master-missing-stress has been particularly barky. I’d had fun thoughts of just him jumping in the car with me and us being off on a joy ride only to remember how after about an hour he becomes a bit nervous and then starts pacing amongst the front to back seat. It’s not like in the movies folks.

 

And just so you needn’t think Oliver holds all the blame for me not wanting to drive, everyone who knows me very well, knows that I have a very particular aversion to driving long distances. I have done it, but not happily. Four days on the road and it not being any sort of vacation sounded a bit like hell, even if my long-lost husband would be with me half the time. So by now in my imaginings, it being 4:30 am or so, I popped out of bed to explore other options. 

 

Now just to bring you up to speed, as I’ve seen that not too many of you had viewed the blog post that mentions the x-ray taken at the chiropractor’s office in Billings, MT, of the disturbing disintegrating back discs and the prognosis of too-swollen-for-biking-across-the-country-let-alone-walk-across-the-room swollen nerves around said vertebrae.  Nerves that had been agitated by the uphill bike pushing of the first days of heading out of Seattle into mentally challenging snow-covered mountains. You can catch up on that event here. So the ability to continue on, even to the fairly flat Cowboy trail had been decidedly unwise from exiting the doctor’s office, but you know, these things take a while to digest. He had acquired a cane at least. 

 

So back to yesterday, as I early morning surfed the internet, I saw his travel options luckily were somewhat equally cost-effective to me driving up. Planes, buses and cars each having their own extending costs. But at least there were options. About 7 am or so I saw that Bill was on Facebook and called him. Turns out he’d had a very rough night and actually felt sick, achy, headachy A ‘head cold’ he said. Oh my. Trying to be casual about my desire to have him come home immediately - of course, only he would determine the end date of this adventure - I gave him the options I’d discovered and as I did, he seemed more and more open to letting the date move from end-of-month to an unspoken ASAP. His head cold was probably talking but timing is everything. Soon we had arrived at him setting off for home Tuesday of next week. After a bus layover in Denver (final nice hotel stay included),  Bill will pull into ABQ, his bike in one more box, on Wednesday night, all things working well. 

I did call him this morning only to find him out on a walk, so that’s a good thing. Cane accompanied but head cold better and leg feeling better too. I asked him again if coming home still felt good. He assured me he’d ‘emptied the tank’, whatever that means, perhaps only he will ever know.


Wednesday, April 28, 2021

Trailblazing, kinda.

 



                                                                    video - Platte River Trails - Home 

Trailblazing, kinda.  Sunny, 60 degrees, no wind, headed out on the Platt river trail,

all very well maintained.  Interesting to have such nice trails in cowboy country without

being able to have horses on it. Good.  People were out and about and it was a treat to get some sun & fresh air.  My bod is still aching quite a bit, especially my left leg.  This lesson - setback - is

really got me puzzled.  I’m realizing I have not turned on a tv set or seen any tv news for

almost 4 weeks.  I don’t even think about wanting to, and we used to watch the news regularly. 

My whole world is somewhat in twists & turns.  

Biking is losing its fizz, especially at this juncture with aches and pains.  Getting some bodywork done and it helps my energy, but some other major energies are peculating within my system.  The giant full moon has much to do with it I’m sure, plus I heard there are tremendous solar winds affecting the planet.  I’ve been sensitive to these aspects for years, but now it has a drastic effect. Plus, it is like I’m in a time warp - I left T or C years ago, seemingly!  

I just re-enlisted for another week at this motel.  Feel like I get personal service here at times.  Everyone is curious about my bike, yet I’m not riding it much.  Journaling, writing blogs, listening to healing music, meditation, etc makes up my day so far. 

Kinda enjoy that!


 

Tuesday, April 27, 2021

Friends are People

People are friends.   It just dawns on me that all my friends and acquaintances, I have never had a social alcoholic drink with.  This is phenomenal. It is something of a miracle that I have NOT had some form of cocktail for almost 40 years.  As a self-proclaimed introvert, I thought I needed a stimulus to be more sociable & likable.  In a previous lifetime, I owned and operated my own beer keg-meister for hosting my beer-drinking buddies. Everybody I knew - coworkers, neighbors, relatives - all drank beer and were offered one immediately when entering the house.  

The friends I have today have never seen me with the ‘beverage’ and I feel so blessed to have these people in my life.  This experience I am having now, and have been preparing for the last 3 years, has truly shown me friendship like I’ve never before experienced.  People have been exceedingly generous with support. Spiritually, energetically, financially, and lovingly.  Feeling verklempt has almost become a common occurrence for me lately.   

When I took my bike into the local bike shop at home, the gal said she was praying for me.  

As I was pushing my loaded bicycle up this huge hill in Washington state, this guy stopped to offer to haul me up to the top.  Yes, yes, I replied gratefully. Dan and I talked for half an hour and he wanted to know about


our blog.  Never can I recall doing anything like that.  

Sitting outside a convenience store, this gal inquires of my status and we chat for a while. She also wants to follow our blog.  This is way out of my realm of past experiences.  

Being raised on a small dairy farm in MN and going to a one-room country school of 8 grades, with one teacher and I being the only student in my grade for 8 years, being social was not a familiar trait I learned or felt.  

After entering AA at age forty I experienced a whole new way of life, and how to socialize without the ‘beverage’.  I am feeling and sensing a deeper connection with people where ever I go now.  My feelings are at the very surface of my beingness.  I sob at the slightest sensitivity or emotion nowadays.  Someone sent me the song title of Alan Jackson’s song ‘The Older I Get’, a few days ago, I sobbed deeply over the implications of the song.  

(2) Alan Jackson - The Older I Get - YouTube 

It has taken me 80 years of life to begin to understand that humanity is loving and caring and generous regardless of my background or status.  

I find myself so far out of the box now, I don’t even know where the box is anymore.  Regardless of viewpoints or societal norms, I am finding a deeper honesty & friendship in our small community of T or C than I ever have.  This experience that I am currently in, has highlighted a genuine feeling & sincerity of what life is really about.  This was never taught me in my younger years- Germans were Germans - Catholics were Catholics - and that’s life!

  

All this baggage seems to be surfacing while in my solitary confinement.  Life is changing very fast these days.  I am finding this extremely exciting because it feels like consciousness is increasing among humanity.  My solo journeying provides reflection time, meditation & much changing!!!


Monday, April 26, 2021

The Hotel

 

Cowboy (rough) country -- the hotel manager, Liz, was telling me that because

the motel is right off the freeway it was used as a stopping off joint for

trafficking - drugs, parties, prostitution, etc.  Now, no locals with a Casper

address are allowed to rent a room. You must show an ID that is from out

of state. There seem to be many motel/hotels in this town. Hmmm.

My room is outside the manager’s office so we are on a first-name basis

around here.  Always asked if I need anything.  This morning was the first

open breakfast since the pandemic last year.  I have waffles, yogurt, bagels,

cereal, fruit, etc - so things are looking up now. Nice to have food. Anything

other than just coffee.  

Had a couple oriental massage/bodywork sessions and my back sounded

like rice krispies “snap, crackle, pop”.  Orientals don’t seem to value pain

as a limiting factor for treatment - at least not from my experience in the past. 

A little relief in piriformis, quads and hamstring, but still have pain walking,

not bicycling.  

Surprisingly, as I am reading my journal, I’m realizing how what I wrote

3 years ago is fitting for my current situation, as if I wrote it for this time. 

Space/time is definitely on a warp speed mode because it does not make

any sense anymore - I left the Seattle train station eons ago - no reality at

all of time for me!!  Some days I can't recall what I did in the morning unless

I think about it - what did I do?  

Anyway, processing my ‘innerts’ and staring at the ceiling is becoming quite

the pastime!!  Chakra music is very soothing & helpful during the evenings.

I can run a few hours on some of the youtube videos.

NAMASTE.

Saturday, April 24, 2021

Questions



Bike - bod - cane.     We have become one...We now go everywhere together.   Life has a whole different perspective from this vantage point!  My egoic self was planning on going east; the Universe(?) proposed a right-hand turn to go south, literally, which I did (under protest).  I am in cowboy country - where I least expected to spend time pondering LIFE - my life, but here I am.  


A needed chore accomplished yesterday - laundry.  Been 3 weeks so far as of today.  Feels good to have on a new clean shell.  

So I awoke this morning, discussing with somebody/something/somewhere, my lack of understanding of why I don’t know more than a butterfly - why I don’t know more than my dog - why I don’t know more than an amoeba?????  Should I care, be concerned, inquire with the Universe about my predicament?  I don’t even know the direction I’m supposed to go, why I’m in Casper, for how long, to do/be what?  

I’ve been on the planet 80 years and now I’m only inquiring about these pertinent questions?!!   What is essential for my remaining years in this Bill Schiller body?  Why don’t I know “jack shit’?  A butterfly knows more than I do.  My dog has more common sense than I do.  

Am I now only coming to an epiphany about my true SELF and why I really exist?  

I’ve frequently stated that I did not want a life here on earth to just ‘work’, do ‘chores’, get sick & die.  I’ll stay “home” next time.  As Paul Harvey used to say - and now, the rest of the story - which always seemed to be very interesting. 

Is LIFE just beginning for us - humanity - to become more aware of the real potential of our spirit/soul?  Something is brewing underneath the hood.  (it ain’t beer).  Anyway, all this is percolating today and so it is!!!    Namaste. 



Thursday, April 22, 2021

Bike out of the Box in Casper, WY

 


Hooray -- got it back together again - nothing broken, which I was surprised about, as it was banged around on the bus rides - upside down & thrown in every which way. 

I'll take it out tomorrow and see how the bod & bike work together.   I'm going to need a cane holder also. 

I'm in Casper now for a one or two-month stint.. Paying attention to what my spirit/soul has to say about this detour. 

Wednesday, April 21, 2021

Sabbatical

 




Sabbatical. That’s about the only word I can think of for my state of mind today.  I’ve read

stories of people who headed out for their big journey, only to be detoured, given an unexpected

right turn and then needed to pursue that.  Surprise!  Surprise! Looks like that’s now me. 


Tomorrow morning I leave Billings for Casper, WY. I’ve booked a room for 30 days, maybe

more.  Some of my peeps indicated I might need to ‘pause’ to reflect on this new stage of

my life.  I’m definitely in ‘pause’ mode. I always said bicycling is a favorite mode of traveling

as it slows everything down. Allowing time to enjoy all the sights, smells, energies around me. 

But now I’m finding out that using a walking cane slows me down even further, placing me

literally in ‘pause’ mode.  


Why? I ask, and the answer feels like I need time to be aware of this paradigm shift as

it's occurring. Awareness of a “beingness” developing inside me, verses me doing an

activity on the external.  I’ve realized for some time that I was leaning toward this

“beingness”, but not now! Not when I’ve had this planned for 3 years, later on down

the timeline would be more convenient.  


The Universe seems to have a different schedule than mine.  I guess just following

my desires is not going to take me to my destination. Maybe my desire activates my

destination?  If any of this makes sense to anyone, let me know so I can know also. 

Namaste……

Saturday, April 17, 2021

Difficult News


Chiropractor visit!  My left leg with the hip replacement locked

up on me and I could barely walk on it.  I’m in Billings, MT for

a few days, so decided to visit the chiro and get an x-ray and treatment.

I knew, but had forgotten about, this situation with my spine. Seven

years ago, I’d had an x-ray of my left hip and was informed that my

lumbar - coccyx spine was not in good condition.  Evidently, it has

worsened over the years, and not until I was up on the trail - bike

loaded with stuff and pushing hard on those uphill climbs did I realize how

much I had stressed my lower back.  Today's x-ray shows there is very little cartilage

left between vertebrae, so the nerves are exposed and compressed,

affecting my whole left leg.  I got a cane today which helps tremendously

to take pressure off my left leg.  





I’m in Billings a few more days, then I’ll take a bus to Casper WY,

where I’ll take a few weeks to recuperate, I should know at some

point what decision I need to make.  Best scenario, maybe a portion

of the ‘Cowboy Trail’ which is on a fairly flat level, elevation-wise.

Maybe - maybe - maybe?!!!!

I had felt so assured for the past 2-3 years that I really wanted to

do this venture and now this?  I’ve said for many years

that ‘my God’ has a weird sense of humor but this is ridiculous. 

So now what is on the drawing board for me?

Feel like I’m left in limbo - no answers but a lot of questions unanswered. 

Definitely need much prayer and reflection time. Was I too hasty - don’t

believe -- anyway!!!!????

Thursday, April 15, 2021

Bike in a Box

 

Well shifting gears today. I was going to just be bussing  

over the snow on the next mountain pass and I needed 

to box up my bike for the shuttle. Buses wont take bikes  

without being in a box and I started to think. I don’t

bike in snow.  I am in North Bend Washington now and

heading into serious mountains for a few more states. 

Having issues with walking & pushing my beasty bike

uphills. They seem to be getting more steep and longer

uphills.  Having metal (6 screws and a steel plate) in my

right ankle now for 40+ years, I’ve been able to maneuver

pretty well with walking some, but biking works much better.

I had a left hip replacement 5+ years ago, which adds another

dimension to my limitations-restrictions.  Biking appears to

going great on flatter surfaces, but walking, especially

having to push the beast over the hills, is getting tough. 

Yesterday, I pulled a hamstring in my left leg which added

more discomfort because I had to push - carry my bike

up this switch-back (6) level hill with no grade

(kind of like Turtleback Trail).  

Anyway, I’ve decided to will change my strategy -

my bike is in a box now. I want to get out of the

mountains and find leveler ground.  Probably knock out

3 states and a 1,000 miles - I’m okay with doing 3,000 miles

instead of 4,000 miles, yeah!  KRJ booked a greyhound

bus to Billings Montana, have a few days layover there

- then head to Casper, WY, still 5000 ft. elevation, 

but coming down to 2500 ft. in Valentine, NE to begin the very flat

Cowboy Trail.  Wish the bus went to Valentine,  

but Casper is the end of the road.We watched a video of two guys biking

this part of the country, it feels doable from there. 

I’ll build my strength heading east toward Iowa. 

I might push myself at times, but I won’t risk life & limb.  

Will add more later once I’m back in my motel again. 

Met some amazing folks yesterday - life is precious and fun!

Thursday am - Waiting for my liftoff - everything I own right here!!!- North Bend, WA.  - 10 AM Thursday 

 


Tuesday, April 13, 2021

Whatever it takes


 Sunday April 11th -

It’s been a week since I left my comfy recliner at home and it was test day yesterday.  My 2 hour planned trip past Washington University turned into 7 hours. Got lost, turned around, got too much info from someone who told me to backtrack. Where I intended to go as my trail map showed, confused me as the same trail was on both sides going around Lake Washington.  Long story short - I got f….ing lost.  Should have called my reliable navigator, KRJ, next time I will!  But tested to the max, mentally & physically, I had no desire to quit or give up.  That will set the stage for the remaining journey.  

Lesson learned that my 80 years of age has different restrictions than I did at 40 0r 50.  Never pushed my bike uphill  - now I do - I must.  Never got lost on a bicycle - now I see it's possible.  I’ll have 4 layers of top clothes on - get too warm, then the wind picks up - and I get chilly.  Keep ‘er going, don’t stop.  My motto has been for many years - “do what it takes, not do your best” - doing my best is bullshit - could give up at any time then.  “Get ‘er done”!


Kim here, Seattle has been an interesting lesson for me in just how closely we’ll be following the Great American Rails-to-Trails map. A path from A to B that might be 20 miles on google maps, becomes 50 miles on rails to trails, mainly because the trails are more beautiful on the 50-mile trek, I get it, but Bill is 79 years old. I think actually making it across the country is the wider goal. This week we let go of a good section that he’ll never see, but who cares. He still has done the 50 miles over the 20, but now I know better. In the 12 steps they always say, KISS, Keep it simple stupid. So my wonderful husband will be hopping a shuttle this week over a 3000 ft. snow-covered mountain pass. He never wants to see snow, but I’m sure he’ll be happier to see it from a bus. He still has 30 miles of biking before that bus and 1200 ft of elevation and it has been chilly already, so he’s taking a break to prepare. I realize now I’m the virtual sag wagon and actually, I’m loving it.




Monday, April 12th - There was some complaining going on today about 2 tires being too tired..so I needed to get it (him) off his feet for a day.  I’m in motel 6 and have 2 beds - this seems to work out fine for now.  Resting up here for 2 days before I head into the mountains.  My travel agent informs me of what is ahead and snow is part of the equation - strategic planning is needed for this endeavor.  I hope it (he) will be rested up and so will I.  I-Hop is next door so will have some cakes in the morning ...and so it is!!!!!


Sunday, April 11, 2021

First AirBnB


Bill writes...

Stayed 1 night at Air-b-n-b in a suburb of Seattle, Wallenford.  Very upscale, 1920-1930’s, colonial looking style houses.  Everything groomed & professionally crafted feeling; not my type.  I'm a more organic, homemade, self-made person. My grandpa was that way on his farm.  Built his own sheds - made a machine shop from an old railroad boxcar - had a welder & crafted and designed stuff he needed around the farm.  People who know me have seen my yard/place and nothing looks too professional manicured.  It gives me the feeling of uncertainty - things could change at any time - and they have and they are.  

This place tonight is soooooooo perfect, like a showcase or museum, too orderly.  Also, Air-b-n-b’s are in neighborhoods where there is no cafes or stores - I’m walking this trip around my world.  It’s very comfortable living but not sustainable long term for me.

It is morning now and I am hearing & seeing robins singing in the trees and hopping around on the green grass outside my bedroom window.  Reminds me of MN - we always had lots of robins especially in spring - was a good feeling for me as a kid because it signified that the damn cold winter was ending.  Birds have always fascinated me.  Back then I carried a notebook in my pocket to remind me when & where & what birds I was witnessing, then compared it to my notes of the previous year.  Nature has always been a part of my visual & instinctual environment.  I am noticing many blossoming trees here but no one I ask knows - hmmmmmm, why?  Why does my internal radar see so much?  Then I don’t get answers to all my questions!!!  Again. 


PS:  was just in the kitchen and found a ‘crumb’ on the floor, OHH!!




Friday, April 9, 2021

Bill is Ready to Ride

 

Before heading out of the city, he had to see the famous Gum Wall of Pike Place Market, where everyone - or millions of everyones - have placed their used gum in the alleyway. Did someone at any point say, disgusting? 


The journey so far has been eventful. Bill wrote in the first days on the train from Los Angeles to Seattle...

Apr 6, Tues - having coffee in observation car - gorgeous view with Mount Shasta while at the same time saw the only mile marker ‘333’ signifying the presence of the masters. The Pleiadian beings, thought to live inside the mountain in the 4th &5th dimensions, show me I am here as scheduled!!!  That and the babbling brook running alongside the train create quite the view at this moment!!!  Synchronicity abounds.    

Earlier, at the Pismo beach stop, a large farming water hauling truck hit our train - knocked the front end off the truck and busted the radiator - lost all its engine water.  The train inspectors had to come out, inspect the tracks and make sure they were okay. The local sheriff and other authorities were all involved.  We stopped for over an hour.
 
Then, I met a guy seating behind me on the train, who indicated he had an issue with his train ticket schedule - something about where he goes after Seattle.  Dias, was his name. I saw that he was discussing this with several other people on the train. And as I sat there listening, I had this vivid thought that this guy was going to need a place to sleep tonite as we get into Seattle at 8:30pm.  I told him I have a room already reserved and could offer him to join me.  He helped me get my bike stuff to my room (which I'd had to dismantle in Abq) and we were able to switch to a 2-Queen bedroom, rather than my one King so he could stay for 2 days and get his situation resolved.

He is a religious guy, the Lord instructs him every day, but 

somehow he ended up on this detour - via him wanting

to go Jerusalem!  We had some interesting chats on how

each of us found Jesus in our lives.  Alcohol was my

 experience to find spirituality after 20+ years of drinking.  

His was 10 gunshot wounds in his body!  I guess that 

would get my attention also.  He left this AM with a backpack 

- on foot - heading east - he trusts in the Lord to get him 

somewhere, sometime!!!!

……………..and the beat goes on…………


Yesterday determined my STUFF was way too much and heavy, I sent a 

large USPS box home.  Reality is setting in what is reasonable to carry along & what is too much.  Downsizing to a manageable level, I'll try this out for a few days as I'll be in Seattle.  Day 3 coming up now.  

 



April 8th 

Moved to the Green Tortoise Hostel @ 2pm today, bottom bunk with the window

open, sunny.  Have a young couple as roomies from Bolivia - both have

master's degrees - 26 & 32 years old - and traveling around the world, kinda. 

They work at the hostel so get free rent.  I get free breakfast in am - coffee available 24/7. 

Had lunch @ pike’s fish market - Athenian - seafood omelet with salmon, cod,

shrimp - yummmooo!!, had to ask for hot sauce though used to it now from NM. 

 

My room at the Hostel is upstairs, up a long flight of stairs, somebody had to

carry my bike up.  Not going to take it down again till I leave, won’t be traveling

much now here.  This is so miraculous how the kinda people I’m running into. 

Got another day yet tomorrow.  


April 9th 

Last evening in the hostel, my roomies, Barbra & Diego had to take their turn

to make the evening meal for the staff.  Brought me some leftover pizza and

a muffin.  Perks for having awesome roommates.  This hostel is in excellent

condition, clean & well run.  Free breakfast in the am - cereal & bagel - if you

want you can make some eggs yourself.  Took a long walk today to find my

route onto the trails in am - plus, I got some coaching from Kimberly to get

my shit together with the maps she made for me.  My initial idea 3 years ago

was to just get a map and follow it.  But her insight saw it was a lot more

involved & completed.  I need a good navigator for my ventures, thank god!!

So yes, talking to him tonight I could hear that he's ready to move on. Bill has had enough rest in the busy-ness of city life and is ready to have someone help him carry his bike back down 3 flights of stairs to begin his journey for real tomorrow, his first real biking day, where he'll skirt the city along the bay for 8 miles up to a nice Airbnb off of the Burke-Gilman Trail for one night before he'll take the next leg of it the 13 miles North along Lake Washington to Bothell. Safe journey, my love. Thank you all for sending love and great energy his way.



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